Friday, December 6, 2013
Can you hear it? A call you can’t ignore.
The voice that gently whispers ‘I AM the door’.
Will you discern it? This atmosphere,
Of enveloping presence, have godly fear.
Do you expect it? I want to be drenched;
The heavens open for thirst unquenched.
Have you hunger? Where is your passion?
The Spirit could move in unordinary fashion.
May we never cry out ‘Ichabod’,
For who are we without our God?
Be sure to seek, listen, receive
For man is dust when glory leaves,
Whether you’re free or bound by sin
The winds of change are sweeping in.
Saturday, November 30, 2013
Nobody ever says "You know what I've always wanted? Someone to make me feel bad". If you rarely have a nice word to say about others they have no reason to be around you. Without love we are clanging cymbals (1 Corinthians 13:1). What's your aura? It should be a sweet smelling aroma that is created by walking in love (Ephesians 5:2). Some think they are entitled to relationship, however Proverbs teaches us that he who has friends must show himself friendly (Proverbs 18:24). I am a friend of God because He first showed Himself friendly, before I knew Him He reached out. When you're in real relationship with someone you're not easily moved by what other people say about them, because you KNOW their heart/character. God wants you to know Him intimately, so you can testify about Him, “You can’t make me doubt Him, I know too much about Him”. We overcome by the blood of the lamb and the word of our TESTIMONY (Revelation 12:11)
He doesn't want you go to church routinely and memorise some scriptures JUST because somebody told you to. This is how we can become religious but it is not necessarily how we enter into relationship. He will reveal Himself and His character, the great I AM (Exodus 3:14). I AM _____ I AM ________ I AM bread, truth, life, light, the vine, the door, the shepherd. God could force us to worship Him just because He's God, one day every knee shall bow and every tongue shall confess that Jesus Christ is Lord (Philippians 2:10) but even now He has loved you with an everlasting love, He has drawn you with loving kindness (Jeremiah 31:3). He didn't have to bless me but He did. God put a smile on my face and gifts in my hands, He turned my mourning into dancing, He exchanged my spirit of heaviness for a garment of praise. In the presence of the Lord there is fullness of joy and at His right hand are pleasures forevermore (Psalm 16:11). He is not a miserable kill-joy, He IS Joy.
Jesus said "My people hear My voice" (John 10:27) I know His voice is not one of condemnation, for there is no condemnation in Christ (Romans 8:33-34). Whenever God judged Israel it was always to bring them back to Himself, outside of Him there is only death, in Him is everlasting life. It's for your GOOD (Romans 8:28). It is God who justifies and makes intercession for us. It is Satan who is the accuser of the brethren (Revelation 12:10). We speak the truth in love. God corrects those He loves, therefore do not despise the discipline of the Lord, nor be discouraged when you are rebuked by Him (Hebrews 12:5-11). Those who equate 'godliness' with stern detachment from the world, those who are elitist and self-righteous despise the grace, goodness and patience of God (Romans 2:1-4). He calls us to "Come boldly to the throne of grace" (Hebrews 4:16) but that's not all, when He could've sat high and looked low, He stepped down from heaven, humbled Himself and came down in the flesh as a sacrifice. Greater love has no one than this, than to lay down one's life for his friends (John 15:13). I can testify that God is good. xx
Monday, November 25, 2013
This was originally an FB status of mine... I don't know how friends manage to read some of the longer paragraphs I post... but since people actually take the time to read my even longer blog posts I guess it's possible *grins* I'm glad you 'get me', sometimes I wonder if it only makes sense in my head and if my analogies actually do their job.
I try and act like I don't like being 'in my emotions' but c'mon *admits* I'm sensitive. Not to be mistaken as timid/easily offended/a mess, it concerns 'being in touch with'. Everything I create I connect to. My question is: Why have we made emotions our enemy? I'm so glad I can feel (yep wrote a song about that lol!!) Years ago I wrote a poem called 'Follow On' which was about leading our emotions rather than being led by them. Our senses are gifts, we just have to learn how to manage them and not allow them to manage us. I for one am glad I'm not a robot. However, just like free-will this gift has been tainted by misuse. God teaches us to walk by faith and not by sight (referring to believing) but you know what I'm thankful for sight too. I'm not gonna close my eyes walking on the street, wasting the practical natural gift in an effort to over-spiritualize. This is the same God who gave us eyes, and healed the blind so that they could see. I see and I feel.
Sometimes we experience mixed emotions. Soul music demonstrates this wonderfully, the lyrics can be so sad and yet they make it so beautiful it reflects life and it's bitter-sweet taste, strawberry lemonade, the reality of joy in the midst of pain, of a season that happens to be the best of times and the worst of times at the same time. Think of Psalms or even Job "Though He slay me yet will I trust Him". This is a conflict that seems to co-exist, for instance, happy you're in heaven but sad to see you go or I won the war but I'm wounded (wrote a song about that too called 'Balance' lol). It's not confusion. God Himself is the lion and the lamb, grace-giver and judge, powerful and meek. You don't want to be an extremist, bring balance to all things and recognise that what you feel is what you feel, just because you acknowledge it doesn't mean you follow it.
You can't fix it until you address it. I will acknowledge when I'm tired (drained) but it doesn't mean I give up (defeat). Joel says "Let the WEAK SAY I am strong", you have to know you're weak to say you're strong (otherwise that didn't apply to you in the first place). Honesty is like being naked (loool) but without the shame that we have in regards to our physical frame. It's taking off the fig leaves. Expression is a kind of exposure that accepts its truth whilst rejecting judgement of that truth. It's saying I'm steps closer to freedom simply because I have the courage to be open and release. You'll never heal the things you hide.
Wednesday, November 20, 2013
Should be sleeping,
And the thoughts
Like a glass of warm milk.
Put me to sleep,
My soul to keep,
Empty my mind
Of all these questions.
Trivial and testing
Are you ever too old
For a lullaby?
I don't feel,
Like singing to myself
Nor do I need to hear
The voice of anyone else,
On which I lay my head.
Should be dreaming,
Writing to make me feel
Productive with mine.
Envying objects that lay still
Whilst I wrestle with my will.
If only creativity,
Was the reason
I lie here restlessly,
Waiting to answer
An alarm's call,
Before the sun rises
May eyelids fall.
Monday, November 18, 2013
You feeling bad about yourself is about as senseless as an eagle walking on the ground. Why would someone who God RAISED from dust remain so low? Even the Most High thinks highly of you. Psalm 139:17 How precious also are Your thoughts to me, O God! How great is the sum of them! God made man a little lower than the angels, crowned with glory and honour, putting all things in subjection under his feet (Hebrews 2:6-8). If God loves me (which He does) and I continually commune with Him, how can I hate myself? HOW? Somebody needs to have a conversation called prayer, and just listen. Somebody needs to soak in some scriptures, taking a bath called Bible LOL for the word is living and powerful (Hebrews 4:12-13). Jesus died for YOU and you don't even want to live? He came to give LIFE and life more abundantly (John 10:10).
The thief comes to steal, kill and destroy, that includes stealing your identity, killing your confidence and destroying your life. TRUTH - The enemy is intimidated by you, so he deceives you into fearing him and hating yourself. You will never tap into your greatness if you don't even enjoy your own company. If God enjoys spending time with me how can I be unworthy of the company of 'other great men'? Rise above the mind games and submit to God, resist the devil and he will flee (James 4:7). There is power in the name of Jesus. The enemy may strike your heel but do not fear for you shall CRUSH his head (Genesis 3:15). They (my enemies) have fallen under my feet (2 Samuel 22:39).
The only person who would make you think you are nothing is the enemy. Please take your rightful place. Your position is above and not beneath. Deuteronomy 28:13 And The Lord will make you the head and not the tail; you shall be ABOVE only, and not be beneath IF you heed....". When people put out bad energy it's a pity - toxic. This is your living space - interior. The outside is merely a shell - decoration. You don't need to neglect one to pay attention to the other - balance - at least not for eternity. Be presentable, not because you have something to prove but because you love yourself enough to take care of yourself. God looks at the heart but He didn't create the world in a slap-dash manner, look around, this planet is beautiful. Now look in the mirror: IT IS GOOD. You're a work of art - act like it. It's not about having the 'right look' or the 'right features' - just be the best you.
Hold your head up high and smile. When people try to make you feel bad about yourself, consider an eagle coming down to entertain chickens. The ones pulling you down FEEL less than you, really this opportunity is just as open to them as it is you. But rather than dealing with themsleves they come for you, most of the people arguing with you are desperately trying to settle a conflict within themselves. You make them feel uncomfortable, for example some women 'shrink in the presence of other beautiful women' which is why they bring the claws out. You didn't actively threaten or intimidate them, the strife rose up in themselves. The way you carry yourself makes a difference to the way you feel and the way people look at you. What is it about looking up? Looking back = past; looking forward = future; looking around = circumstance; looking down = defeat; looking up = wonder. Awesome wonder = impressive and inspiring a "feeling of amazement and admiration caused by something beautiful".
Psalm 139:14 I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made, marvellous are Your works, and that my soul knows very well.
Psalm 139:14 I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made, marvellous are Your works, and that my soul knows very well.
I couldn't put up with it. Who knew being part of an audience would cost so much. No matter how much I clapped or cheered, encouraged or consoled, they continued seeking validation for vanity. I became their narcissistic supply. On the contrary, those who actually take the time to look outside of themselves are rarely so miserable, because they see needs in others and wherever possible they help. Reach the realisation that everybody is going through something. The trouble with being strong is some people will expect you to carry them. Understandably it's easier to sigh for sympathy so that the strong reach for you. My confidence is mine, you can't have it. It's called SELF-esteem you have to get your own.
Misery needs company. It's a crime to be joyous when the world is on their shoulders. Your happiness is cruel mockery. Suppressing my smiles to empathise with their frowns. I found myself in need due to their neediness of no end, yet no matter how bad my situation became theirs was always worse. Despite the support they received, the privileges they had, the opportunities that opened, they couldn't help but vocalise 'woe is me'. They feed off strife, the tales that were once tasty trifles became stale. Apparently I was lucky I had it so good, in reality I paid for my smile like everyone else - this cost me too. Change tune.
They don't have to admit it, we know they hope pity will gain them sympathy votes. There comes a point where strumming on heart strings becomes a song - of subtle manipulation. We're compelled to feel sorry, we feel bad for giving practical advice that doesn't fuel their dependency or enable their weaknesses. We run to every cry, coddling over-grown babies. Sometimes indulging in being needed. The saviour of the victim becomes the victim. But the trouble with living off a sob story is, when we start to notice every chapter is the same.... we begin to question the author..... Change story.
Sunday, November 17, 2013
Today I watched 'Order My Steps'. Bishop John Francis was preaching on 'Fantasy or Faith' part 3...
Confirmation of You'll Be Glad You Waited >> "The trial of my faith worketh patience (James 1:3) something happens in me. While I'm waiting I'm developing a level of patience because faith is doing something to my impatient spirit. I'm learning to wait when I don't wanna wait.... With all the tantrums... He says "Even if you take the wings of the morning and fly to the uttermost parts of the earth [Psalm 139:7-10] I'm still gonna be there... I want patience to complete the work in you."
He also said something else that resonated with me, it was about Hannah. >> "Hannah went down and started crying to God, she poured out her soul. God had closed her womb, in the Hebrew the word means He not only shut it down but He shut it down to repair it. Because her need was to have a son, God's need was to have a prophet. There's your need Vs. God's need."
a) When your need versus God's need, we need to decide whose will. Hannah didn't have to give up her hearts desire, however she had to change her expectations of how that would manifest. It was still a GOOD GIFT but offering her child to The Lord 'to remain there forever' (1 Samuel 1:22) was probably not the way she envisioned raising her son. In a sense, like Abraham she was willing to sacrifice her only son. These are illustrations of God and His son Jesus Christ, for God so loved the world that He gave (John 3:16). Something has to give. If she held onto the picture of Peninnah (her provoker's) blessing she would never have been open to receive hers.
b) Hannah gave birth to a son and another prophet of God was born into the world. When she poured out her soul, she gave up a need that looked inward, saying "I will give him to The Lord, all the days of his life..." (1 Samuel 1:11). When God calls us we have to lay aside our own plans. When we do this it's a sign that we've matured from the infant state of 'gimme gimme gimme' (1 Corinthians 13:11). He is ready to loose what has been waiting to be released because He has need of it, not just because we want it. Are we willing to give our blessings 'back' to God? It's not a dismissal, it's a dedication, it's 'all I have is yours'.
c) For some, the wait has been long because this is a new thing being done in you. No one puts a piece from a new garment on an old one and no one puts new wine into old wineskins (Luke 5:36-39). We've been through a process of preparation. I imagine Hannah saying "My son, the prophet was worth the wait", I see the donkey Jesus rode to the Mount of Olives finally understanding why he was tied for so long, because he was on reserve for a very important person. Luke 19:30-31 Jesus said to His disciples ... "Go into the village opposite you, where as you enter you will find a colt tied, on which no one has ever sat. Loose it and bring it here. And if anyone asks you, "Why are you loosing it?' thus you shall say to him, "Because The Lord has need of it.'"
God doesn't hide you in obscurity as though you're something to be ashamed of or forgotten, He hides you like a cocoon does a butterfly to promote you at the set time. The beauty of the butterfly was not for vanity but a revelation of God's glory. Dream 15/11/12 I was in a new city/or country, an unfamiliar place. My next door neighbour, a lovely old woman would often greet me. One day she asked how I was settling in, she brought round some food. We sat down to eat it, when suddenly she spotted an insect. I reached to kill it but she stopped me. Desperately trying to protect it she lifted it onto her finger. It morphed into a white butterfly. This is one of my favourite prophetic dreams. Give it time.