Sunday, November 30, 2014

See It Through...

God may answer your prayers by messing up your plans Just see it through to the end . He might just allow what you fear to come upon you (Job 3:25) so that when you come out on the other side you realize that what you feared could not stop you. It hurt, it even hindered but you can't taunt me with it anymore, I've already survived it  (Isaiah 54:17). Perspective. God said Job was blameless and upright (Job 1:8) because he feared God (Proverbs 8:13) and shunned evil  In all his suffering Job did not sin nor charge God with wrong (Job 1:22). Job didn't go through because He had fears, He went through because He had faith (James 1:2-4). It's just a test. When He has tested me I shall come forth as gold (Job 23:10) He knows the way that I take! You pray "order my steps" (Psalm 37:23) thinking He will align the stones you already planned to hop on (loool), only to have Him redirect you completely. THIS is the way, walk in it (Isaiah 30:21).

It's not just the plans in your own heart (Proverbs 19:21) you're praying the word, keep standing on it but know that WE know and prophesy in PART (1Corinthians 13:9). We only have pieces of the bigger picture, so I stare at the puzzle, squint my eyes and ask "God, what are you making ?" (Isaiah 45:9). The God who knows the end from the beginning (Isaiah 46:10). Indeed He has spoken it, He has purposed it, He will also do it (Isaiah 46:11). Amen  You know He's put a gift inside of you for a reason, but you modify it's use or deny it's true purpose, because that's not how you see yourself. God calls and He calls and He calls and you run and you run, all this running wears you out so you hide... Or rather His grace hides you in the 'belly of a fish' (Jonah) until you're strengthened (Isaiah 40:31) and submitted enough to run again this time WITH the vision (Habakkuk 2:3).

Let me make it plain, He didn't always do what I expected, but looking back I see the signs. Sometimes you think the word is for someone else but it's for you too. When my Nan was sick, I wrote Isaiah 43:2 inside of her card. When she passed that was the word I held onto. She had already transitioned, I was still going through the waters, the rivers and the fire. Be mindful, when you posture yourself to be productive and say "Lord cause me to grow" He will start cutting you, excuse me, pruning you (John 15:2)  And yet I'd rather be cut down than cut off. Listen, my dad chopped away at the apple tree in our garden, and it looked so ugly and bare, we were side eyeing him like ()... But then it GREW back healthy and produced even more fruit. If it wasn't pruned it would have rotted! Yeah it looked like he messed it up, but everything will be made beautiful in its time (Ecclesiastes 3:11) Xx
Your new motto: see it through!

Thursday, November 27, 2014

My 'Ministry'

I don't know what to do about how GOOD GOD is to me. I wouldn't even argue it... I won't debate, but I will express. I fear that *ponders* to say "God is good all the time *pause* all the time God is good" is taken as churchy and CLICHE... Some speak it and don't mean it, some only say it because it's what's expected of them. The religious honor Him with their lips but their hearts are far away (Matthew 15:8-9). So I'll say it... But I'm also gonna live it. I'll live out my appreciation in the way I do best, that might not be in the form 'they' expect.

 I'll say it but I'll also sing it, in whatever genre I enjoy, with the lyrics and melody I'm inspired to create. I'll say it but I'll also write it... In stories that reflect His principles, in poems full of imagery, messages and metaphors, not just sermons with scriptures. I'll dance it not just in white gloves and flowing skirts, but like David as a display of joy and gratitude not worried about my garments being 'unpriestly' (2 Samuel 6:14). I'll draw it, not just in crosses and halos or lions and lambs. I'll carry it in my demeanour, my presence, my aura. Note that love fulfills the law (Romans 13:8) so even just walking in love (Ephesians 5:2) is a ministry (John 13:35) in that context you can just LIVE, you can just BE. The thing is many don't want to show love, they just want spotlight. 

Well, if nobody else receives it, that's okay... I will let my peace return to me (Matthew 10:13), because I'm just being true to self by being true to what I believe. I won't sell out to 'the world' but I won't fit in a religious box either. Xx

Sunday, November 23, 2014

The Prayers of the Righteous

I was reminded that the prayers of the righteous availeth much (James 5:13-18)! Don't quit praying. Be persistent (Luke 11:5-13) as persistent as the widow who cried out day and night (Luke 18:1-8). Though He bears long with us His ear is not heavy that it cannot hear nor is His arm shortened that it cannot save (Isaiah 59:1). He is a rewarder of those who DILIGENTLY seek Him (Hebrews 11:6) this is evidence of your faith, that you believe and hope against hope (Romans 4:18). Though it tarries wait for it (Habakkuk 2:3). The prophet asked "How long shall I cry? And you will not hear? Even cry out to you 'Violence!" And you will not save." But the Lord replied "Look among the nations and watch - be utterly astounded. For I will work a work in your days which you would not believe though it were told you." (Habakkuk 1:1-5). He continues "For indeed I AM raising up..." He's working on it!! But those who wait on the Lord shall renew their strength, they shall mount up on wings like eagles, they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint" (Isaiah 40:31). Xx

You Changed

"Don't forget where you came from" not everyone who tells you this does it to keep you 'grounded', some will say it to keep you stuck. But why? Shouldn't everyone desire to move forward? Most do, but moving on means moving away from comfort zones, and it's one thing to move on together, it's another for you to shoot off and 'leave them behind'. "You changed". 

In order to grow you need to change. This is not plucking 'something' out of thin air, this is the same 'thing' transformed so that what was old becomes new. You plant a seed and what comes forth can never forget its roots. It can deny them, it can hide them but its very being is evidence. For though it has changed form it's the same seed. 

You are the same person in a different state, continually being refined into the glorious image you were created to reflect. This is not identity lost, this is purpose realised. You were planted to grow, not to be buried, and so you don't lose yourself in this process, but you find yourself. Not everyone likes change... but you never need permission to blossom...

Sunday, November 16, 2014

A Jella Gem (12)

There will always be counterfeits and you will always have a choice. The easy way out or the uphill journey to excellence? Greatness can be uncomfortable, greatness requires passion, greatness can even be offensive to mediocrity, but how bad do you want it? It takes time to build something authentic, because it often goes down (roots) before it grows up (height). They say 'Rome wasn't built in a day'. It's not just impatience due to immaturity or anxiety due to fear that trips you up, it's also over eagerness due to excitement. You can be so happy to have something that you settle for anything. Don't let the wait make you desperate. Keep your standard. When it's time it will work, not because you wished for it, but because you sowed into it. Seedtime and harvest will not cease! (Genesis 8:22)

Sunday, November 2, 2014

Thou Shall Not Covet (Part 2)


It may have started out as a compliment but covetousness is not an expression of love. James 3:14-16 But if you have bitter envy and self-seeking in your hearts, do not boast and lie against the truth. This wisdom does not descend from above, but is earthly, sensual, demonic. For where envy and self- seeking exist, confusion and every evil thing are there. It is the work of the flesh, not the spirit (Galatians 5:16-26). How does wanting what belongs to someone else serve them? It only serves you, and it leads to theft and murder "Thou shall not steal", "Thou shall not kill". James 4:1-3 What leads to strife (discord and feuds) and how do conflicts (quarrels and fighting) originate among you? Do they not arise from your sensual desires that are ever warring in your bodily members? You are jealous and covet [what others have] and your desires go unfulfilled; [so] you become murderers. [To hate is to murder as far as your hearts are concerned.] You burn with envy and anger and are not able to obtain [the gratification, the contentment, and the happiness that you seek], so you fight and war. You do not have, because you do not ask. [Or] you do ask [God for them] and yet fail to receive, because you ask with wrong purpose and evil, selfish motives. Your intention is [when you get what you desire] to spend it in sensual pleasures. 

One may look at another and think "Why not me?" but the same could be said for people who lack what you have in abundance. When you see others who don't have, do you again say "Why not me?". No because this question is coming from a place of greed. To those who have, don't be tricked into feeling guilty, God gave it to you, don't apologise. Keep serving. Some are moved to 'serve' in serving their own agendas. No, you're not imagining it, Paul reveals that some preach Christ even from envy and strife (Philippians 1:15:18). Though they do it out of rivalry, to make themselves look better than their neighbour, Paul rejoices solely because Christ is preached. Don't be distracted by the competition they think you're participating in. This is not to exalt yourself, this is to let your light so shine before men that they may see your good works and glorify your father in heaven (Matthew 5:16)!!! You are the light of the world, a city that is set on a hill cannot be hidden. They do not light lamps to put them under a basket, but they light lamps to put them on lampstands, so that it gives light to all who are in the house (Matthew 5:14:15). Keep shining.

I guess there's a good reason why they warn 'Be careful what you wish for' because to whom much is given much is required (Luke 12:48). As illustrated in the Parable of Talents (Matthew 25:14-30) we must give an account (Romans 14:12). We want that "Well done" :) :) #Yaaas God says I, the Lord, search the heart, I test the mind, even to give every man according to his ways, according to the fruit of his doings (Jeremiah 17:10). We ask Him to create a clean heart in us (Psalm 51:10), for the heart is deceitful above all things and desperately wicked (Jeremiah 17:9). Your feelings will lie to you, they will tell you that you need what he has, they will cause you to compete with her, they will tell you that what you have isn't good enough, this is all birthed out of insecurity. You are too precious to be insecure, you are fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14). 


Some people's remedy for covetousness is to try to become what they are not to gain what is not theirs. You may be able to fool man, but you can't fool God, for man looks at the outward appearance but God looks at the heart (1 Samuel 16:7). Others pretend that no-one else who exists matters, to ignore, to overlook everyone else's gifts blessings, this is no solution, this is not love, this is pride. Romans 12:15 says Rejoice with those who rejoice, but you can't because you're angry at their blessings? Some people's remedy is to remind themselves of other people's struggles, not to develop gratitude, to learn humility or find compassion but to make themselves feel better. Your self worth should not be contingent on some else's lack of. You should not have to put down to get up, and when you are up never look down. It is true, nobody is perfect, no-one 'has it all' we all fall short, we all hurt, we all struggle so refrain from watching other people and making idols out of what you perceive they have. For if we've all sinned and fallen short (Romans 3:23)... then none of us are 'worthy'. God I'm just grateful that you gave me something. I don't deserve it, but you graced me to handle it. Job said "Naked I came from my mother's womb, and naked shall I return there. The Lord gave, and the Lord has taken away, blessed be the name of the Lord" (Job 1:21).  

"I came to this world with nothing, and I'll leave with nothing but love, everything else is just borrowed" (The Streets). The cure is LOVE. Lord I'm not putting my faith, my hope or my confidence in the things You have given me, but the love You have for me. For when things fade, when people walk away even when I grow old and pass away, your love is constant (Romans 8:35-39). The greatest commandment is you shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul and with all your mind and the second, is like it, you shall love your neighbour as yourself, on these two commandments hang all the Law and the Prophets (Matthew 22:36-40). Jesus said "By this all will know that you are My disciples, if you have love for one another.” (John 13:35). "He who does not love does not know God, for God is love (1 John 4:8) You can't love God who you cant see, if you can't love your brother who you can see (1 John 4:20-21). But how can you possibly love your neighbour as yourself, if you don't even love yourself? If you loved yourself would you try to become someone else? If you were content with what you were given would you covet? The commandments, including 'Thou shall not covet' are all summed up in '“You shall love your neighbour as yourself.” Love does no harm to a neighbour; therefore love is the fulfilment of the law (Romans 13:8-10).

Thou Shall Not Covet (Part 1)


Hebrews 13:5 Let your conduct be without covetousness; be content with such things as you have. For He Himself has said, “I will never leave you nor forsake you.” The quickest path to misery is covetousness, that want is never satisfied, because it's not the things it's the root of your desire. Philippians 4:11 Not that I speak in regard to need, for I have learned in whatever state I am, to be CONTENT. I'm pretty sure nowadays more than ever we need more teaching on "Thou shall not covet" as opposed to "All the material things you will get", because we have people out here looking at the neighbour trying to get all their things. It’s even worse you only want it because it's THEIRS. Key word: theirs. Exodus 20:17 You must not covet your neighbours’ house. You must not covet your neighbours’ wife nor his male or female servant, ox or donkey, or anything else that belongs to your neighbour.”

Covetousness is rooted in jealousy, ungratefulness, self-centredness and a sense of entitlement, it leads to greed. Covetousness causes you to compete for things that were never yours. When you covet their FAVOUR you'll go broke trying to buy what they got for free. Be content and thank God for continually blessing you. We're all blessed, it's covetousness that will have you thinking God is being unfair. Focus on the measure you're graced to handle now. They may have gotten their 'things' in unholy ways, they may have many things and live unholy but when you're content you don't resent them. Psalm 37:1 Do not worry about the wicked, or envy those who do wrong. 


Jamaicans say "Yuh too RED EYE" *chuckles* I’ve grown up hearing this saying, mostly when my belly was full and I still went up for more after seeing someone else’s plate of food. Key word: full. I like the way Bishop Noel Jones put it: “He gives according to each person’s ability (Matthew 25:15). According to your capacity to handle. God does not expect you to do more than you have the ability to do and He doesn’t expect you to do less. So why do we have envy? If one person can handle 5, one 2 and one 1, why is there envy? If I have a glass that’s full, why should it be envious of a sink that’s full, a tub that’s full, a lake that’s full, an ocean that’s full? If you’re full you’re full. The lake can’t hold the water that’s in the lake. You don’t have time to look at what God’s doing for someone else, you need to work on what He has given you to do for yourself. Too many people spend time looking outside of their gifts at how God is operating in other people’s lives. Peter asked ‘But what about this one?’ Jesus answered ‘What is that to you? You follow Me’”, (John 21:21-22). 


Seek ye first the kingdom, your Heavenly Father knows what you need, chase after Him and His righteousness and all these things will be added to you (Matthew 6:32-33). One 'thing' we're encouraged to covet is to prophesy (1 Corinthians 14:39) because he who prophesies edifies the church (1 Corinthians 14:1-5). When you prophesy you give by building up, when you covet you tear down by trying to take what's not yours. In other words desire to bless others rather than be consumed with a desire to benefit yourself. Whilst the world pursues power and desires man made gifts, above all we pursue love, desiring spiritual gifts. Others may try and persuade you to cast longing eyes on someone else's elevation. Feeling forgotten may cause you to covet but God's got you! 1 Corinthians 2:9 Eye has not seen, nor ear heard, nor have entered into the heart of man, the things which God has prepared for those who love Him. You can appreciate without lusting over. So often we watch others in comparison, using it as a bar to measure our potential blessings but eye has not even seen what's uniquely yours. 

When your desire is purified you will delight yourself in the Lord and not things. He will GIVE you the DESIRES of your HEART (Psalm 37:4). If we only come to God because we want, want, want, gimme, gimme, gimme 'prosperity' without the rest of His word, we're not delighting in HIM. Promises are great but delight in Him also. Psalm 37:3 Trust in the Lord, and do good; dwell in the land and feed on His faithfulness. Abraham was willing to sacrifice the very 'thing' he waited so long for (Genesis 22). Can you delight in God when you have to give it up? Can you trust Him, do good, dwell, wait and feed on His faithfulness when you're in lack? Can you be content when you're 'abased' not abounding? Yes you CAN. You can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens you (Philippians 4:13). The wait exposes motive; what do you really want? When you're not getting your own way and hope is deferred can you still delight in God? That's the true test. When he had every 'right' to covet and complain Abraham confirmed his faith. Imagine, we want what's not ours when Abraham had to give up what was his.


The least we could do to honour God is be generous not covetous. Whenever you bless others you bless God (Matthew 25:31-46). "Inasmuch as you did it to the least of these you did it to Me" (Matthew 25:40). Matthew 6:33 Seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness and ALL these things shall be ADDED to you. The kingdom is not just made up of conspicuous ministries, it's definitely not a building, it's like the Body of Christ - people, it's in YOU (Luke 17:21). When you disregard and disrespect others, when you expect to reap without sowing, when you covet you're not operating in kingdom principles. A preacher made me laugh, in his sermon he mentioned praying and prophesying over someone, seeing great manifestations for him. This man had so many amazing testimonies to the point where the preacher said he wanted to lay hands on HIMSELF to claim the blessing.

This is Kingdom, when you can pour into others and as a result they end up with more 'things' than you but you don't covet, because we bless for a greater good, not for selfish gain. That 'blessed man' was so humble (not puffed up, he gave God glory) and managed his blessing (stewardship) in a way that impacted many. You may covet their things not knowing that they only have more things in order to become a greater SERVANT. It's an assignment and purpose. Matthew 20:25-28 ... “You know that the rulers of the Gentiles lord it over them, and those who are great exercise authority over them. Yet it shall not be so among you; but whoever desires to become great among you, let him be your servant. And whoever desires to be first among you, let him be your slave— Just as the Son of Man did not come to be served, but to serve, and to give His life a ransom for many.”